Patience and Consistency

Forethought- thinking ahead enough to put on sweatpants before leaving the house in the brutal cold to go to the gym. That’s all good and fine until you forget them though. No worries, it’s only -7F right now, dumbass. Cold weather-1, Courtney-0.

My car is dusty and driving around the neighborhoods kills my gas mileage. Ack!

I did not make it to the pool yet. Don’t hassle me. I’ve got it on the plan for tomorrow. It’s been way, way too freaking cold to get in the water at 6am the last few days. 

I’ve been sleeping terribly the last few nights. Consequently, I missed my run yesterday morning due to getting maybe five hours of sleep Monday night. I did get to spinning though, so check one thing off my list for yesterday. 

I’m also frustrated. My weight is a never ending issue and constantly weighs on me, pun intended. I know my eating was a mess from my honeymoon up until basically the holidays. I had a few spurts of good eating over those months, but for the most part I was way too loose and not working out nearly as much as usual. And now I’m pay the price for those months of indulgence. 

I’m tryingggggg, stop yelling at me!

I’ve been eating well for a few weeks now with the exception of a day here or there. I’m starting to increase my training so the amount of calories I’m putting out is going to continually rise. And yet, my weight is still creeping up. I can’t wrap my brain around it. And the new pair of jeans I bought a couple of weeks ago are sitting in crumpled pile of hate and shame on the floor because they’re tight and I won’t wear them. Even though they cost me $45, $17 of that was shipping. Thanks for not having anywhere to shop Geneva *insert cranky face here*

Ack, always a work in progress. Never perfect. Not that I need to be, or want to be, but I would like to be comfortable in my own skin. Actually, at the peak for my racing season last year was the most comfortable I’ve ever been in my life with my body, and I wasn’t even my “goal weight”. Ugh, body image. Why do you suck???

In the words of Bear Grylls, patience and consistency. Someday I’ll stop battling myself. Someday. 

Favorite self esteem pick me up that ISN’T food or exercise?
Is it super cold where you live again? Is that causing a change to your routine or workout?

17 Replies to “Patience and Consistency”

  1. It’s cold here too and while I’m not training for any outdoor events getting up and going is hard when your bed is soooo warm and cozy! Fav pick me up that isn’t food or exercise? Girl time and/or manicures. I feel much more put together when I have nice nails (which isn’t often).

  2. It’s not all that cold here so I have no excuses and am still chickening out, running/biking indoors. You guys are animals! 🙂 First time back in the pool on Monday though – went a lot better than I had expected. As far as the never ending weight battle is concerned, I feel ya. Kept a pretty strict diet last week and went UP by a pound. This whole caloric intake balanace thing just confuses the heck out of me. I ordered “Racing Weight: Quick Start Guide” – Matt Fitzgerald and should get it today. Hoping it will give me some better specifics to adhere to.
    Pick me up wise – new cut and color always makes me feel a little better.

  3. I just want to make sure you know that you’re beautiful and an absolutely rockstar. You inspire me to take care of myself and get my butt out there! Never ever ever forget that!

  4. I’m glad I found your blog. I enjoy reading people who post open and honest heart filled posts. For me, I have personal self talks daily about how to overcome and dream big. I hope you make it over the hump.

    I live in NJ and we have gotten a lot of snow these past few days.

  5. I hear ya about the weight increase frustrations. I’m living it and trying not to let it bug me! It generally doesn’t, until I eat healthy and keep up my activity with no budge from the scale.
    It’s been shockingly warm up here for the past two weeks! It’s super bizarre for January!

  6. Not a lot of snow here anymore but it’s freaking FREEZING!!! My fave self esteem pick me up would have to be either lipstick, nail polish or bubble bath. Or all three depending on how crappy I’m feeling, ha ha. 🙂
    I know this is way easier to say than to put in to practice, and it took me LONG time to grasp this – perhaps that’s what happens when you hit your 40’s – you just start to be more accepting – anyway…I have come to realize that the number on the scale is just a number. It doesn’t define me or what my body can do. Your body is capable of amazing things (you’re a TRIATHLETE, not many people can say that!) so that number, really is just a number. I’m sending you a hug because I know this struggle all too well.

  7. It is unusually warm here in Oregon. I went for a bike ride with a few of my girlfriends today and it’s JANUARY. Crazy weather happening in the US. And I totally get what you mean about going to the pool when it is freezing out. It takes me around 3 minutes before I actually get in and start moving. I am not a fan of cold water.

    Nutrition and managing weight is such a difficult thing when you are doing triathlons and upping the training. I feel like I am always hungry and have to hold back on eating too much – I call myself the bottomless pit. I try to fill up on veggies and dense foods that make me feel full fast. Keep in mind – you are healthy and strong. That muscle weighs a lot. 🙂

  8. It’s FUH-reezing here in Montreal. I can’t wait for spring to come! It definitely affects my workout routine. I tend to work out more at home. I really should go to the gym for a nice long run this weekend!

    We all have low days, but simply brush them off. Do something that makes you feel good and squeeze in a run, it will make you feel great again about yourself!


  9. I totally know where you’re coming from, I just got married in October and I feel like I still haven’t gotten back on track with my eating and exercise routine since the honeymoon. The cold winter weather isn’t helping me either, I don’t want to bundle up to go for a run outside and I hate getting up early when it’s still dark outside. I’m hoping to get back on track now as I start getting into training for my next triathlon.

    I’m really enjoying reading your blog!

  10. As someone that has her own weight issues I know the frustration of trying to hard to lose weight. One thing that has worked for me and then for the people I have trained is to focus on your sport or training. If its running you are eating to have energy but also to keep muscle when you are focused on eating for a reason you tend to not worry about the scale as much and more on your performance. Less than two months before spring!

  11. Weight… ugh. by far my biggest limiter, i hate worrying about what I eat. It takes me more discipline to eat well than it does to run outside in this freezing weather. I should also admit my love for beer doesn’t help either 😉

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