The Other Side of Fear

There are just some times were your head isn’t quite in the game. This week has been one for me. And don’t get me wrong, I’ve finished every workout I’ve had scheduled so far for this week, but it was with a lot of force and reluctance. And it’s not because I don’t love training, because I do, but I think life in general just feels off to me right now and all I really want to do is curl up in the corner of my couch under a blanket, watch HGTV, and eat enough pizza to put me into a coma. 

Mostly, I’ve been feeling a bit nostalgic lately. About what I’m not entirely sure. A lot of things really. Emotionally I’m just not invested in this week. Life wise that is, which is trickling down to my training. I looked hard for an excuse to skip my lunch time swim Tuesday, and forgetting my Garmin was my out. After I had already gotten to the YMCA and changed and everything. I did end up getting my swim in Wednesday instead, so I still got all my workouts up to this point in, just not necessarily when I planned them for. 


I just feel like something has to give. I just need some sense of reward or accomplishment beyond that of training at this point and I don’t know where to turn. 

I did get a great sweat session in last night during a two hour spin. That always helps. Hopefully the weather isn’t too awful all weekend. I really need to run and ride this weekend and if it’s raining I’ll be very cranky. Not going to help the way I feel, that’s for sure. 

In less depressing and boring news, I have a few cool reviews coming up soon, including a really awesome giveaway!

Also, my next race is The Rat Snake on May 17th. I’m doing the reverse triathlon which includes an 18K trail run and 29 miles of torturous hills on the bike. I’m not sure how smart it was, now that it’s only a few weeks away, to sign up for a race with a high injury probability only five weeks out from IMCuse but there’s no turning back now.


More on the shirt later. But really, I can’t have a line up this bad ass and leave one race unchecked. So, to The Rat Snake I go in two weeks. Until then, I just gotta keep on chugging along. 

What do you do to snap yourself out of a funk?
Anyone else have a race coming up?

10 Thoughts on “The Other Side of Fear

  1. OMG! I so know what you mean when it comes to not having your head in the game. This makes it so hard for me. Those days, I generally don’t run or lift weights. Instead I’ll do a short HIIT workout, just so I can say I did something. It’s too hard to run when you are not in the mood, and it’s a bit dangerous to do heavy chest presses when you’d rather be somewhere else.

    I’m thinking of signing up for a Sprint or Super Sprint triathlon later this month. I need to get my season going already. Just trying to find the right race at the right price.

  2. I have an OCR on May 17th, so I’ll be running with you in spirit 🙂

  3. Been there too those days where I just want to hide in bed with the covers over my head that’s when I make myself do something anything just to get over that slump in my head!

    Have a great wknd

  4. To get out of a funk, I sometimes buy new gear, or enlist a friend to help. That’s what I’ve had to do recently for my bike training…hope it helps.

    I know you can do it…just take a bit of a break (hard to do with that race list) but come back and love it even more!!!

  5. What a great quote! Thanks for sharing! It’s so true 🙂

  6. Glad you love it =)

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